My youngest brother chose to end his life last week. Despair runs in our bloodline. I’ve been at that edge several times in my life as well and looked over the rim. I understand. I can accept it. It doesn’t make it any easier.
The next day for the first time I was actually in the end of a rainbow. Physically surrounded by the shimmering rainbow prism colors. I had no idea that you actually could at the end of one, even at this age there are still new things to experience. I didn’t see any pot of gold but I believed it was there. Even more amazing was that I experienced the same thing about 40 minutes later down the road. Twice. Just to make sure I didn’t miss the awesome not-a-coincidence event. The whole thing was stamped into my being, I felt it.
Then in my morning reading I found out about Kintsugi.
http://professionsforpeace.com/2014/02/18/our-golden-scars/
Thank you Gina. You showed me for sure that I did find my pot of gold and I needed to use it to fill in my cracks. I will pass it on to all those who will listen in hopes it helps their healing as well.
” Most repairs hide themselves—the goal is usually to make something “as good as new.” Kintsugi proposes that repair can make things better than new. Repair can be beautiful.
The story goes that a 15th-century Japanese shogun, Ashikaga Yoshimasa, sent a broken tea bowl to China to have it fixed. When the bowl came back, it was held together with metal staples. Disgusted, he set out to find a better, more aesthetically pleasing way to repair broken pottery. His eventual solution? Adding gold dust to adhesive resin, so that cracks are emphasized and made attractive.
The Japanese art of kintsugi, which means “golden joinery,” is all about turning ugly breaks into beautiful fixes.”
There are many web sites about this ancient art. Here are a few and a great video.
http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2009/03/02/AR2009030202723.html
Again I believe there are no coincidences.
Seasoned 
I’m so very sorry to hear about the loss of your brother. Sending you hugs and cuddles, please take care of yourself. Best wishes.
Thank you. Hugs are always great, aren’t they?
This was a lovely post. I am so sorry about your family’s loss and the pain your brother must have suffered. Your ability to find rainbows and Kintsugi in difficult times speaks to how you care for yourself. Thank you for sharing Kintsugi with us.
Thank you. I appreciate all your support.
My heart goes out to you, hoping to send healing. There indeed are no coincidences and I am pleased if my post could offer some smidgen of comfort. Last year my younger son’s good friend took his life and I wrote about it beginning July 1st. Last summer and autumn was really hard on me, so I deeply empathize. May your heart find peace and may you find very real strength amidst this blogging family. With love and light, Gina
Thank you.
Gosh I am so so sorry to hear about your brother I’ve not really the right thing to say. Big hugs and thoughts. Sometimes it’s good for a while when mourning using a distraction to think about which I think you’ve found in this artform xx